"The Talk"

So James and I had "the talk" tonight or at least some drunken, semi-unfinished version. The bottom line was that he just wanted to be "cool" with me and not mess up what we had. He rambled on about how I was a nice girl and that he didn't want to hurt me. He said he just moved to town and wasn't ready for anything serious. He "needed to get out on his own" for awhile. I don't understand the need to sugarcoat it, dude... I get it. I mean yes I liked him but I'm not interested in messing things up with the other guys we hang with. It's still a little complicated but it always is when you involve alcohol.

I think I'm just going to stick with my "break" and see what happens. This is exactly what I needed to move on... I've been friends with men that I'm attractive to before and its worked out fine. Ok...so maybe that's a small lie, but I will really try this time. James just wasn't the one.

Sam and Betty, I need you to bring your "A" game next time.

Sleeping Alone

I've noticed recently that I've been sleeping in the middle of my bed. For the longest time I've slept on the left side of the bed. I rarely crossed over the imaginary line in the middle of my bed to the other side. The strange thing is, I'm not totally sure why. After thinking about it for a few days, I've come to the conclusion that I was training myself for the future. I was actually training myself to only sleep on one side of the bed in hopes that one day a man would be on the other side. Crazy isn't it? I don't know when I started doing it, I just know when I stopped doing it... and I love it. I'm getting the best sleep of my life. Sometimes I sleep in the middle, sometimes I sleep backwards, and sometimes I sleep diagonal.

I know this might seem trivial but it's really opened my eyes to some of the little things I do that are self destructive. Changing me sleeping habits is only the beginning.