I Think I'm Broken

Why is it that I don't like nice guys? Maybe I should restate that... why can't I like nice guys? I ALWAYs fall for the jerk, the ass, the d-bag. You name it, I've dated it. There is just something about them that I can't seem to get enough of. We date for a few months then I get pissed off and finally break it off myself (meaning I stop calling them). At times, I would be juggling two of these jerks at the same time. Somehow it was easier when I had two men to keep me occupied.

I have since stopped this self-destructive behavior (see pervious posts).

Doug and I have been dating for a little over a month. We've been out three times (1.drinks, 2.dinner & movie, 3.lunch). The first date wasn't very great. The second date was better and I liked him more. The third date was rushed and I wasn't really feeling it. We communicate all the time. We text back and forth for most of the day and we attempt to talk at night. He normally texts me first and asks me about my day or telling me about his. Sometimes I like talking to him but sometimes I'm just really annoyed by it.

This is why I think I'm broken. Why don't I like the guy that does what he says he's going to do? Why don't I like that guy that would give me anything I wanted and ask for nothing in return?

I have no idea.

I'm spending this week at my parent's house doing some thinking. What exactly am I looking for? Can I find what I want in Doug? Have I given him a chance to give me what I want? These are all very good questions. I guess I'll have to see what a difference a week makes.

Happy Holidays!

I know it’s been a few weeks since I last posted; my apologies. My life has been a little crazy and I’ve barely had time to breathe.

Overall, things are good. The semester is wrapping up at work and I’m taking some much needed vacation time. I’m still thinking about job searching but I haven’t gotten around to it. I signed back up for my pottery class in January. I’m very excited!

Friends and family are amazing and there is never a dull moment. I truly treasure the time I spend with these people. It will be nice to see them when I travel home for the holidays.

I’m trying very hard to put myself first and to take care of myself. I try to go to Zumba at least twice a week as well as going to my gym. I’m eating healthier and cooking more. I really like cooking and cooking for others. The holiday parties aren’t helping me lose the weight but I’ve been maintaining.

The boy situation is alright. My first date with Doug was underwhelming but I’m giving it another shot this weekend. We met after he got off work (at midnight) for a drink. We were both exhausted and not really in the mood to sit at a bar. We are going out Saturday for dinner and a movie. I’m really hoping it goes well.

I will try to write more soon. I’m sure I will have crazy stories about being home for the holidays.

On My Way There!

I know I am super behind on the blogging...sorry! I went home for Thanksgiving and I've been a little under the weather.

Overall, things have been going well. Home was good minus the cold I picked up there. My job isn't completely killing me and the students only have two weeks of class before a month break. My weight loss is good. I'm down 10 pounds total and feel good. I have a long way to go but it's about the little stuff. My love life is doing good. I'm free of online dating and I'm enjoying my conversations with News Guy. We have discussed meeting up but my cold has put that on hold.

Overall, I'm doing well and I feel like I'm on my way...finally!