I Think I'm Broken

Why is it that I don't like nice guys? Maybe I should restate that... why can't I like nice guys? I ALWAYs fall for the jerk, the ass, the d-bag. You name it, I've dated it. There is just something about them that I can't seem to get enough of. We date for a few months then I get pissed off and finally break it off myself (meaning I stop calling them). At times, I would be juggling two of these jerks at the same time. Somehow it was easier when I had two men to keep me occupied.

I have since stopped this self-destructive behavior (see pervious posts).

Doug and I have been dating for a little over a month. We've been out three times (1.drinks, 2.dinner & movie, 3.lunch). The first date wasn't very great. The second date was better and I liked him more. The third date was rushed and I wasn't really feeling it. We communicate all the time. We text back and forth for most of the day and we attempt to talk at night. He normally texts me first and asks me about my day or telling me about his. Sometimes I like talking to him but sometimes I'm just really annoyed by it.

This is why I think I'm broken. Why don't I like the guy that does what he says he's going to do? Why don't I like that guy that would give me anything I wanted and ask for nothing in return?

I have no idea.

I'm spending this week at my parent's house doing some thinking. What exactly am I looking for? Can I find what I want in Doug? Have I given him a chance to give me what I want? These are all very good questions. I guess I'll have to see what a difference a week makes.