Maybe I Should Back Up...

... and explain a few things. I've been actively dating for over 2 years, meaning I've dated a fair number of fellas. My friends rarely remember their names so often times they are blessed with nicknames. Here is a brief list of these men and their nicknames. Note: The nicknames have not been changed but their first names have been.

• Erik or "Ass-Bag previously known as MySpace Guy": This is some random guy who is using MySpace to pick girls up. He is cute but he isn't the best speller and coming from me, that's not good. We've exchanged a few messages but nothing has "wowed" me.
• Matt or "Rereturn": I met Matt last March but nothing ever came of it. He resurfaced in my life a month or so ago. We went on two dates but he "just looking for fun"... if you know what I mean.
• Chris or "Putt-Putt": He is my most resent ex. We dated for almost 5 months. I broke up with him for a number of reason. He says he is still in love with me and wants to get back together. I'm still not sure. We still talk and we had coffee together a few weeks ago.
• Jonathan or "Bad Taste in Music Guy": We went on one very awkward date where I faked a stomachache to avoid dinner. (That lie messed up my dating karma for weeks).
• Brandon #2 or "Troy Guy #2": I stumbled across Brandon #2 while searching for Brandon #1. We hit it off and talked everyday for almost 3 weeks. When decided to meet and he stood me up. I called and gave him a piece of my mind...oh yeah I was THAT girl.
• Marc or "Valentines Day": Marc and I really hit it off and dated for a month or so. He is going to school and working full time. He claimed he didn't have time for a girlfriend. Since our mini-break up in March, we've been FWB. Sometimes I wish it was more but then I realize that he would be a bad boyfriend.
• Josh or "Military Guy": Josh was a rebound guy. There isn't much to say.
• Chad or "Star Trek": I never met Chad. I met him through this sketch dating site. He seemed like a nice guy but he liked Star Trek a little too much.
• Kris or "Bartender #1": Kris was like cayenne pepper. He burned me every time but I never learned my lesson. He could have been the one but he wasn't in the right place to be. He moved to FL to finish law school in September. We've remained friends.
• Brandon #1 or "The Artist":Brandon was perfect. He had red hair (I have a thing for redheads) and amazing eyes. He was getting his masters in art and he thought I was beautiful. We went out a few times then he disappeared... that crushed me and took me awhile to get over him.
• Mike #2 or "Box Boy": Box Boy worked in a box factory and he had dreams of being a punk band promoter...enough said.
• Mike #1 or "Navy Guy": Mike #1 was a few years younger than me. He was one of those guys who was "just looking for fun". It was fun while it lasted but he was a little too childish for me. He also liked to give hickeys and that was not a good look in the summer.
• Dave or "D-Bag Dave": I started seeing Dave the summer before I moved to Ohio. He was a good guy but was a little lost when I came to life goals. We had "the talk" before I moved. We decided to try and make it work. After a week, I was the only one trying so I stopped calling him.

Now there are two men I haven't mentioned. These men and I go aways back and they are both still in my life... as friends. They live across the country from me and I often find myself wondering that if I moved back to where they are, would it work. Many of my friends don't like these two fellas and for good reason. My friends have comforted me through years of heartache & heartbreak with these guys and more than a few times they've fished me out of a bottle of cheap wine. To tell you the truth, I'm not sure if I will ever be fully over either of them.