I came to the realization today that I still have feelings for Marc aka "Valentine's Day". I’ve been lying to myself for awhile, saying that I don’t want to be in a relationship with him but the truth is I think do. I’m tired of second guessing our interaction and reading too much into his facebook posts. So I decided to tell him how I feel and what I want. Since the man never answers his phone or texts, I had not choice but to use the only method of communication I know he will read... a facebook message. Under normal circumstances I would never use facebook to tell someone how I feel about them, however, it’s all I got. Below you will find the message I left for him. Again, I am normally more eloquent but it’s a facebook message...how earth shattering can it really be? I will keep you posted on his response. I just keep telling myself...what is meant to be, will be.
So this might be coming out of left field for you but I’ve been doing some thinking. With the passing of my grandmother and other family issues, I’ve begun to look at things differently. I’ve realized that I still have feeling for you. I’ve attempted to suppress these feelings for months but for some crazy reason I can’t seem to get you out of my head. I’m not saying let’s be together and spend 24/7 with each other... neither of us are like that. I’m saying let’s give this dating thing another chance. We are good for each other.
If you don’t feel the same way I do or can’t see us trying to date, I understand but know that it will change things. I can’t just be friends with you, it’s too hard. I enjoy the time we spend together but I am always left questioning our interactions. I can’t do that anymore.
I guess I’m just asking you to think about it. I don’t expect an immediate response but if I don’t hear from you in the next few days, I’ll assume you don’t feel the same way I do.
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