A Keeper?

I’ve been talking to a new guy for about a month now. His name is Brandon (yes...I have a track record with men named Brandon). He is 34, divorced and has a 6 year old daughter. He is a little country but I think that’s what I like about him. He isn’t like any guy I’ve dated before. I like him...probably more than I would like to admit. We’ve been on two great dates but scheduling a third has shown to be difficult. We are both busy with work and other things so our schedules have a hard time matching up. The fact that he has a daughter isn’t helping as he spends all the time he can with her. The kid thing is very new to me so I am still trying to adjust. We talk almost every day so that is good. I keep telling myself that things are good.

Now tell myself that and actually believing it are two different things. Due to some shady business in the past, I’m more inclined to think he is going to bounce rather than stick around. I’m looking for a guarantee. I understand I’m not going to get one nor can I ask for one. I spend a good amount of my day worrying about this relationship. I’m getting a little better but it is still hard. I feel like it is WAY too early to say something to him. I hope to see him this weekend. I’m not sure if that is going to happen and that is frustrating to me. If you aren’t going to make some kind of effort then why are we still trying to make something work? I’m trying to make this one last but I’m getting close to ending it b/c it would be easier.

I don’t know what I’m going to do. I guess we will see if he calls today...I’ve been doing most of the calling the past few days. I think this one is a keeper so send good thoughts my way... I need them.