This happiness thing isn't as easy as I thought. I've been sucked into old habits that are proving to die hard. I know I just need to keep pushing through. The support from friends has been great and they are excited to help me along on my journey of happiness.
I made dinner tonight for two of my guy friends. They are amazing men who are like brothers to me. We had Yellow Pepper Chili and some Garlic Nahn. The chili was great and they didn't even know it was low fat! I used Weight Watcher cheese as a garnish and they had no clue. They were helping me clean up and one said...you fed us low fat cheese! I have no idea! It was funny. We sat around after dinner and watch some great college football. Go ND! Anyway…they are both really supportive of my lifestyle change and they only want the best for me. Overall it was a great dinner with great people.
They guys left around 7pm so I could ready for my date with Brandon. It seems that the planets finally aligned and we are going to see each other. Well…that is what I thought. He sent me a weird text message around 5pm saying he was stuck somewhere for an hour or two. I texted him back asking what he was talking about. We had tentative plans to see a movie around 8. It’s 9:30pm. I called his cell and no answer. I’m just sitting here wondering why I’ve let myself get into this mess. I’m not sure what I should do. I say a lot of things but some are very very hard to follow through with. Like I said before, I’m afraid. I’m afraid to end it. I will update you on what happens.
Breathe…I pushing through whatever this funk is and hoping it gets a little easier.
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