I’ve taken a good, long look at my life these past few days. I’m not who I thought I would be. I rarely find myself smiling and I’m often in a surly mood. I’m not laughing anymore and I spend most of my time with friends over disusing my terrible love life. I don’t want to live my life this way, always angry or upset. I know something is missing and I’ve racking my brain trying to figure out what that is.
I think its happiness.
Happiness is a simple concept. Be happy. Enjoy life. Do things you enjoy. Be around people who bring out your inner happy.
I’m not enjoying my life. I spend most of it afraid of what is going to happen next. I stay at a job that drains my soul because I’m afraid I can’t find another one. I get myself into the same relationship over and over again because I’m afraid I’m not going to find someone. I’m just afraid.
I’ve decided that I don’t want to be afraid anymore. I want to be happy.
I’ve been searching for love, passion, romance, completion...I’ve been looking for the wrong thing. I need to start looking for happiness.
What does this mean, you ask? I’m not looking for love anymore. Betty and Sam have a new task in my life...to help me be and stay happy. The tone of the blog is going to stay the same (I’m still going to be aggressively breezy) but the content might be altered. It’s going to be about the positive things in life, not the heartbreak and disappointment from the past.
I hope you enjoy this change and will stick with me on my journey to happiness.
I find myself feeling bittersweet. On one hand, as your friend, I think this is a positive change in your life. You deserve to be happy and dating isn't usually the way to find happiness. On the other hand, your dating antics are wildly entertaining and I will miss them!
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